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confident, and I thought I had actually become learned. Why
should I not feel so when there were a number of Ulama from
al-Azhar who attested for me, some of them even told me
that my place was there, i.e. at al-Azhar. What really made
me proud of myself was the fact that I was allowed to see
some of the Great Prophet's (s.a.w.) relics. An official from
Sidi al-Husayn Mosque in Cairo took me to a room which
could only be opened by himself. After we entered he locked
it behind us, then he opened a chest and got the Great
Prophet's (s.a.w.) shirt and showed it to me. I kissed the
shirt, then he showed me other relics which belonged to the
Prophet(s.a.w.), and when I came out of the room I cried and
was touched by that personal gesture, especially when the
official did not request any money from me, in fact he refused
to take it when I offered it to him. In the end, and only after
my insistence, he took a small amount and then he congratulated me for being one of those who have been honoured by
the grace of the Great Prophet (s.a.w.).
Perhaps that visit left a deep impression on me, and I
thought for a few nights about what the Wahabis say regarding the Great Prophet(s.a.w.), and how he died and passed
away like any other dead person.
I did not like that idea and became convinced of its falsity,
for if the Martyr who gets killed fighting in the name of Allah
is not dead but alive (by his God), then how about the master
of the first and last. My feelings became clearer and stronger
due to my early encounters with the teachings of the Sufis
who give their Shaykhs and Saints full power to see to their
affairs. They believe that only Allah could give them this
power because they obeyed Him and accepted willingly what
He offered them. Did He not state in the sacred saying: "My
servant ... Obey me, then you will be like me, you order the
thing to be, and it will be."
The struggle within myself started to have its effect on
me. By then I had come to the end of my stay in Egypt, but
not before visiting, in the last few days, a number of mosques
and I prayed in all of them. I visited the mosques of Malik,
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